Random thoughts..

Another tiring week has passed. I'm now in school as a reserve for the P3 screening test. Heard about a sad story of an unwanted kid in my class and I feel sad for him. How terrible it is when parents are irresponsible towards their kids. Their kids suffer and they become a menace in the society. What can I do for them and how can I help them?

We've learnt in CGM last night about our ATTITUDE DETERMINES OUR ALTITUDE. I need to be WILLING to spend more time with my pupils. I need to be WILLING to help others the best that I know how. I need to FIGHT again.

Many memories filled my mind as we were worshiping God yesterday. The extra extra miles that I'd made for God, the joy of serving even when my energy level was low and the happiness of bringing those that I love to Christ and seeing them grow in the kingdom of God. Indeed, no one will understand that joy unless he/she goes through it. And indeed, there will always be high and low seasons of our lives. We go through valleys and go up on mountain tops. Like what Wendy prayed, this will be a last fight that we'll know that we'll never regret and we'll definitely bear fruits. Only if we fight again. Yes, we will go through more hardships and challenges, but it will be all worth it.

I felt it strong in my heart last night that God wants all of us to know that it is alright to "wrestle" with Him. It is alright to ask Him why things are happening around us and "argue". Just like how Jacob wrestled with God and got his blessings in the end. This is a form of communication with Him too. He'll rather we "argue" with Him than we keep quiet about it. When going through difficult times, many people just choose to keep quiet and hate Him and then walk away. We should keep fighting and asking until we get our answers. This requires patience and perseverance. These few mornings, I've been asking God lots of "WHY" about things that had happened the past two years. Although I still have not gotten any answers from Him, I felt that God was pleased that I asked. Maybe I've stopped asking for a very long time. I've been living life as it is, complacent, for many many many months. It's time to be ALIVE!